Worry is a big enemy of mine. I fight it all the time. There are so many things that seem to pile up on my shoulders and all of them are greater than me.
My sweet sister/friend and prayer partner here in Belgium and I decided to list out our biggest burdens on our hearts last week. They amounted to 7 prayer requests that all need a miracle to be answered. Every. Last. One. None of them can be answered with human intervention. We feel helpless. God IS NOT.
In the heaviness of this season, I have gone back and reminded myself of the many miracles that God has done in the last few years after I called out in prayer.
22 members of Hary’s family freed from war in Syria.
Miraculous changes in the girls’ school.
Hary’s change in work schedule after his job said they would NEVER give him a different contract.
My sister-in-law’s safe travel to Sweden.
Those 4 nieces and nephews ability to move to Sweden with their mom after their dad died.
God’s provision, like He promised Hary and I, to buy a ministry house and provide for repairs.
Those are the top on my list. Remembering seems healthy…hope giving. Because sometimes we walk through dark tunnels of life and wonder when the light will appear. We are in that tunnel now.
Hary and I get up every morning now and read a Psalm together. My heart felt so down the first day we read together…and the second. But what God whispered to me through reading David’s words every morning is that it’s okay to ask the hard questions. It’s okay to wonder when rest will come. It’s okay to ask Him to stop the ungodly actions around us. And it is healing to remember what God has done and then believe that I will sing His praises over these situations in the future…even when the present is hard.
We are thankful that He is still with us. He is growing my trust (just happened to the be the word He spoke over me when we were in process of buying the ministry house). We are glad to know that in the weariness of the moment we can rest in Him. And we are blessed for the worldwide community He has given us to pray for and with us. Prayer…better than worry everyday!